Loving the wallflower
Posted by Someone's thoughts , Saturday, January 5, 2013 11:30 PM
Just as I thought my life was content I got myself a Nook simple. Why not? I always wanted to become a bookworm and get into reading. I never really did, I read the books to get by my adulthood. My first purchase on my new drug was "perks of being a wallflower".
After seeing the movie with my boy friend (both having low expectations) I left the theatre as a new being. Why hadn't I been given this journey a long time ago. Putting my foot in this door I decided to pick up the e-book. I couldn't do anything else until I was done reading it.
I felt as though my life was a complete version of Carlie, Sam, and Patrick combined. I have never felt so consumed and apart of characters lives. Charlie gave me such a deep look into a complex mind which is; being a teenager. As a teenager I really struggled with the concept of feeling a purpose and fitting in as most of us did. but i was really different, I was awkward and sarcastic and a bunch of other things. While I wanted to just be apart if someone's life, I pushed people away with dry humor. I'm not sure why my high school teachers never recommended me this book as they cringed at my struggle. I constantly sought something to relate to.
A few months have passed since I've read this book and I often still come across the thought "we accept the love that we think we deserve". Why do people do that? Why have I done that? Why have I been settling? I will learn for the rest of my life, I know that, but for some reason I'm still surprised by that. I'm constantly being taught life lessons. It's hard to keep track. That's why this post will later come as a reminder. We all need to deserve a ton of love. I know I'm accepting the love I think I deserve, because that love is whole and fulfilling. This book/movie stepped into my life and list of lessons at the perfect time.
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