This past weekend I watched "Les Misérables". I've never seen the play or listened to the soundtrack but I have always loved musicals. Within the first half hour I couldn't turn away. I couldn't even tell you if someone even got up in the theatre to use the bathroom, that's how into this movie I was. The characters were perfect, and the voices were even more brilliant.
I've always had a hard time seeing Anne Hathaway as someone other then the 18 yr. old in princess diaries. But she was perfect. As silly as it may seem I've never really thought about how much pain must come with using your body as a tool for money. The way they hacked at some of the most beautiful hair I had ever seen. The way she sold herself for her daughter and lied cold and alone. This woman had been sacrificing her life and still her every breath was for her daughter.
We sacrifice so much in life for our children and loved ones. It always gets me, these characters that are created in movies and books to relate to the audience. We love and care for these characters. I can honestly say I may name my daughter Clauzet. I hope to even have half the courage and faith of the people in this film. It was so refreshing the lesson of faith in God and being humbled by grace.
Just as I thought my life was content I got myself a Nook simple. Why not? I always wanted to become a bookworm and get into reading. I never really did, I read the books to get by my adulthood. My first purchase on my new drug was "perks of being a wallflower".
After seeing the movie with my boy friend (both having low expectations) I left the theatre as a new being. Why hadn't I been given this journey a long time ago. Putting my foot in this door I decided to pick up the e-book. I couldn't do anything else until I was done reading it.
I felt as though my life was a complete version of Carlie, Sam, and Patrick combined. I have never felt so consumed and apart of characters lives. Charlie gave me such a deep look into a complex mind which is; being a teenager. As a teenager I really struggled with the concept of feeling a purpose and fitting in as most of us did. but i was really different, I was awkward and sarcastic and a bunch of other things. While I wanted to just be apart if someone's life, I pushed people away with dry humor. I'm not sure why my high school teachers never recommended me this book as they cringed at my struggle. I constantly sought something to relate to.
A few months have passed since I've read this book and I often still come across the thought "we accept the love that we think we deserve". Why do people do that? Why have I done that? Why have I been settling? I will learn for the rest of my life, I know that, but for some reason I'm still surprised by that. I'm constantly being taught life lessons. It's hard to keep track. That's why this post will later come as a reminder. We all need to deserve a ton of love. I know I'm accepting the love I think I deserve, because that love is whole and fulfilling. This book/movie stepped into my life and list of lessons at the perfect time.
