its probably really bad that for the past month i have been mostly up till 3 every night. but tonight is different. marisa and becky are leaving at 4 in the morning, and their sleeping, im staying up so that i can wake them up in time for their flight.
=/ im gonna miss them. i'll be pretty much alone until friday. babysitting tomorrow for people whom i dont even really know. not much to look forward to. this summer will be fun, but come fall when some friends are gone, i'll be sad.
ew i sound so emo lol. no im just really actually okay with it. this usually happens to me, when i have to leave my friends.
ok im gonna stop typing now, i think its kinda loud and i'll wake them up.
i just realized of course i put the word "work" in the wrong place on my intro to graphic design final project. but u know what? IM KEEPING IT LIKE THAT! because that's something i would do if i had an add, have an error -___- the best part is i already submitted it to my teacher who is super picky. sigh good night
today when I was cleaning/packing/jamming out to music i was thinking about my dreams.
my dreams are SO simple its so pathetic. but at the same time since the odds are always against me i feel like im not sure if they can even happen.
between my luck and procrastination, i don't know if i'll even achieve anything to be remembered by.
i'm ok with no one really reading this haha. this blog this is working out for me sorta, because i stop worrying/thinking about it once i get it all out. and i hate my hand writing plus that takes WAY too long lol.
i came across all these memories of the year while i was picking up stuff. so sad how people change usually for the worse. why does change in life make people so bitter. so stupid and annoying. why the heck would u get meaner if you don't like it when people are mean and take advantage of you, to me that makes NO sense... (just sneezed but no one said God bless you with a room full of people) i hate when that happens. is everyone just in a bad mood season?
jacob stop getting mad because this doesn't make sense and it has lots of grammar errors.
How ever since graduation every "goodbye" makes me feel like its gonna be our last.
Now that the end of the year is coming so fast I'm getting that same feeling in my stomach. where im not sure if were going to be close any more, or if your gonna change.
marisa is leaving southern. and i'm really sad/depressed about it. not only is it the worst feeling when you have to say good bye. but its the worst feeling not knowing if things will stay the same. she is almost my bestest friend on the planet. she is my earl to jeremy. and it really blows. we have been best friends since 8th grade. almost no one knows me better then she does. ha its actually pretty creepy. but no matter how confident i am that we will stay close, i still am not sure if im gonna have much of a back bone to lean on here at southern. Maybe this is just how God knows i will grow and be more independent/more dependant on him.
i'll really miss her though, it hurts my feelings that this has to happen. what a nice way to start my sabbath. even though i just had the coolest time in jackie's room. i still couldn't help but think about that.
so much for graduating from high school, good byes still feel the same.
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Someone's thoughts
2:30 PM
Everyday I realize more and more that every song I listen to has a history in my life. there are so many versus that I can listen to and they always apply. One day I want to write down all the lyrics I love, before they fade away.
I think I have really grown to appreciate music.
my favorite band right now is "Barcelona" and my song right now is "colors". i love this verse in it that goes "but color makes her smile".
because that's all that matters. is what makes her smile
Posted by
Someone's thoughts
6:27 AM
Hi,
I haven't had a blog since i was 15 and i talked about the tackiest things in the world. ew.
hopefully I can do better with this one.
I used to write so much. now i just say it. oh well.
people change right?
